Tuesday, February 21, 2006

It's the eve of my departure back to Perth again. One year ago, I was sitting in this exact same chair typing the first words to my blog and now I have realised something... My blog is one year old!!! Ok besides that I realised that emotions have changed. Instead of uncertainty and apprehension I have upgraded now to resignation and a bit of happiness (at the better climate in Perth) and the same old sorrow at leaving things that I hold dear behind.. esp my mum and dad and my friends.

This time that I came back, I really felt that I gained some friends and lost some. Some people whom I held really dear to me turned out to be people who knew my habits, but yet do not understand me at all. It was really saddening, esp when I know that they have been quite good friends over the years, though they failed me over one particular reason repeatedly, and were people that I could not confide in... It's kinda hard to put into words, somewhat like... you can have a good time out with them and they understand your little quirks but when it comes to the crunch, they do not want to help you when you need help the most...

Sometimes Perth seems like an escape for me, over there I may have other problems but the ones I face in Singapore stays in Singapore... I do not wish to run away from problems but sometimes Time seems like the only thing in my favour...

Still, I take comfort in the fact that some people are still as true to me as the day we've met and our friendship started to grow. These friends are part of the reason that I exist...