Sunday, June 11, 2006

Talked to a friend about some issues for like 4 hours yesterday night. The conversation really inserted a lot of thoughts into my mind. Suddenly, things are not as clear-cut as they seemed. What should I do? Everyday is a struggle to keep the faith. Sometimes it seems as if I live my life on a treadmill; just when I thought I was making progress it seems as if I've just been walking around on the same spot. Sometimes I do know that I'm making progress, but I don't know how much, and whether that amount of progress is actually getting me anywhere. Feeling positive and negative about it at the same time. Which will prevail?

Oh well, I suppose this sorta stuff always sort themselves out. "The answers we find, are never what we had in mind. So we'll make it up, as we go along."

Felt real sleepy all day today. Kept dozing off in front of my textbook, and finally gave in and went for a 1 and a half hour afternoon nap. Studied for about 2 hours after that before cooking dinner - instant noodles. I kinda feel all screwed up, esp for my Saturday papers as I haven't really started studying on them yet. And I just don't have the morale to go for a jog today. I feel about as useful as a ticket for the Titanic's 2nd voyage now, i.e. totally useless.


I need a time machine. Or I need to learn the "dian shue dao" you always see in Chinese Kungfu films. Then I can just "dian" the invigilators, so that I have more time or can just copy from the textbook straight. Yeah yeah... Quit dreaming and start studying.

Here's a quote from Joey about distractions while studying at home. Found it really funny so it made it into the Hall of Fame, "(The) computer, bed, food, even my water bottle is more interesting then my notes." Funny gal, that QYC.