Saturday, April 30, 2005

One perfectly good and fine Saturday, though a little gloomy. I could be playing with my PS2, I could be playing games on my computer, I could be finishing up on watching my La Bi Xiao Xin VCDs, I could be blah blah blah..., but NOOOO!!!!! I spent the whole day near school studying Monetary Economics. And it's very veRY VERY difficult!!! Why should I care if the consumption and investments made by individuals and firms are dependent on interest rates and that generates output and the government can exercise fiscal policy by controlling money supply to meet excess demand or whatever!!!! Because I need to know to pass my paper on Tuesday so that I can successfully get my degree in 2 year's time that's why! And I had to pass up dim sum buffet with my sis to go studying.

If you had asked me just now when I was studying, I mean seriously if you grabbed me by the shoulders just now and looked into my eyes and asked me with a straight face what my dream and ambitions were as I was in the middle of plotting the ISLM curves just now, I would have looked you right back in the eye and told you I want nothing more than to be a farmer and generate enough rice to feed my family. I want to go home...

Sigh but well, a farmer's life is not easy too. If you asked a farmer maybe he will say he wants to study econs (are you sure he's a real farmer?). Oh well, nothing is easy. Life goes on.

Went home after around 6.30pm, I had clocked in 5 hours of straight studying in St Thomas More college with my friend and add an hour to the studying I did at home before coming out, I clocked in an unbelievable 6 hours plus of solid studying, not adding those I'll be doing later. I seriously think that I am losing myself. The real Ian does not ever study. In poly I don't even attend lectures. What is happening to me? Am I becoming Studyman? Studyman, Studyman, friendly neighbourhood Studyman... *(Sing to Spiderman theme)

Bought dinner from Spencer Village home to eat, today's menu was Beef Nasi Briyani. Excellent, though the take-away portion is much smaller than if you had it there. Still good and satisfying though. Was a little disappointed that the drunk angmoh racist guy wasn't here today, I'll seriously vent my study anger on him and stuff my Monetary Econs lecture notes down his throat, or whichever end is facing me. You get the hint. Cough cough.

I'm going crazy. The walls are growing pads. Help me. Sanity is drifting past my fingers.